I have not posted in a long time because I have been busy getting through my senior year. It is tough to complete work under the chronic watch of senioritis. Here’s an update: I am still waiting on most of my college news, I am getting through school well, and I just broke my nose. What would senior year be without another surgery? Woohoo. My love life is still waiting for school to end. It’s looking like I’ll have to wait until college to grow up.
This is for those people who tell me they like me because I’m not ‘in your face’ gay; that I’m a ‘normal’ gay. Those people, and most heterosexual people, don’t understand why people flaunt themselves. Well, maybe they do. They don’t realize it, though. To all of you, read carefully. Guys like girls (usually). Girls like guys (usually). That is assumed. Guys talk about it and girls talk about it. In fact, that is all people talk about in high school. But if you’re gay and you talk about it, you’re imposing your values on others. If you dress a certain way, you’re hopelessly self advertising. I’ve got some news. Everyone self-advertises. It’s a mechanism of evolution. I am thankful that gay guys self-advertise with certain mannerisms and dress. It would be so much harder to find gay guys if none of them did. Everybody thinks they are complimenting me when they tell me I act straight. That just tells me that gay guys won’t think I am interested in them because they will think I’m straight. That’s a bad thing. How do people not understand that? I am gay. I want to be gay. I want everybody to know that. A gay person should never ever try to act ‘straight.’ Gay people, saying that you like straight-acting people is a negative stereotype. Quit it. You’re gay, you should stick to dating other gay people. Guess what. Gay people are gay, therefore they act gay. Embrace it.
Sorry that this is all over the place, I’m tired and I don’t feel like proof reading.
Okay, this might be common for some of you – but do you not HATE it when you realize that nobody seems to fit the ‘right’ standards? (I’m not going to lower my own standards just because nobody around me wants what I want) I honestly can’t seem to understand what it is that I’m doing wrong or if that I’m destined to be a dog person. Anyway, this is just a rant.
Nothing has really happened since I last posted (which was some time ago.) Well, the soccer season started. I guess that is something. We’ve practiced for a week and we start playing in a few days. We always start the season with a tournament. This year we are playing two of our three hardest games in the tournament. That should be interesting. We have two crazy games to start off the season and another crazy game to end the season. It’s like a crazy sandwich.
Today marks the last day of conditioning for my senior soccer season. Let me catch you up on last year though:
We went 15-2-1 and lost in the State Semi’s in a disappointing 2 to 1 loss. It was supposed to be the year we won, however it is what it is.
I dedicate this season to all my teammates and look forward to keeping you guys updated in the process. This also marks the day I have come to the decision that I will be releasing an article, during the post season, about everything. I am going to let the whole world know who I am, what I want to do, what I want to change, and that I am proud of who I am. I have nothing but the highest expectations for my play and being honest to everyone is part of those expectations.
I look forward to linking you guys to it when it’s final! Until then, stay tuned –
I think I pulled my adductor magnus. I’ve got no idea what that is exactly, but it’s something in my groin. Upon googling it I saw, “It is aggravated by running and quick movements… including moving side to side and kicking a ball.” Damn.
On a slightly nicer note, soccer try outs have begun and that means no more conditioning. Woo! Try outs have actually been going on for a week, so let me fill you in. Last Monday was my favorite day because I barely did anything. Due to bad weather, we had try outs inside… in the hallway. We did push ups, sit ups, jumps, and broad jump. We were all split up into four groups and did one station at a time. I was given a clipboard and I took down times/push up count/etc for one group. I felt pretty cool. I got to yell at some freshmen. Continue reading