Today has been just another rainy day in the Pacific Northwest. It has been like this for quite a few days now, and I am sick of it. Being a spring athlete means I have to train through this weather no matter what. The worst part of all is that I play a sport where most of your training is done outside. Yes, I am able to run on the “dreadmill” downstairs in my garage and watch my favorite basketball team, the New York Knicks, play ball. But I know that to really improve on last year I need to step outside and just do it.
The beginning of the run is always one of the hardest parts. My body is always freezing because I have not yet acclimated to the temperature as well as warm up my muscles. All of my muscles ache from yesterday’s hard run, but I know that I have to keep on going. I know that for every run I do I am just that much closer to reaching my goals for this season in track as well as my goals for running for a D1 school. These are the things that keep me going through those miserable and gloomy days. Some days are worse than others. I know tomorrow’s run is going to be pure pain because my skin has chafed so bad from the shorts rubbing up against my legs that I am now starting to receive cuts. Also, after reading Runner’s World from last month I have started this strength training routine. I never knew a wrestler’s bridge, pushups, v-sit ups, squats, and jumps could destroy my body so bad.
I have already met a pretty nice guy through this blog who also shares the same love of track as I do. He lives on the East Coast and is in winter track right now. Most of the states on the West Coast do not have indoor track. I was complaining to him about how many aches and pains I had a few days ago, and he made me realize something — all of the things I am doing will pay off in the end.
Before I started writing this post I just thought I was going to describe how miserable winter track training is, but I have made a correlation between winter training and the coming out process. Coming out to the first person was one of the scariest things I ever went through, but I was ready for it. This is the same as how I feel once my week off from training ends after cross-country season. The middle time between where you have just told the first person and when you are finally fully out can be very miserable.
A ton of stress is built up from wondering if everyone is going to accept who you are as well as whether you are ready to finally be open and allow yourself to be vulnerable. Just keep in mind that everything will get better in the end. For my winter training, I just have to keep on thinking that track starts in less than two months, and then I will finally be able to start competing again. I also know that my middle period is almost about to end because my process of fully coming out day is near.
Just remember that everything will get better. It is almost track season.