Stream of Conscienceness No.1: self-whatever

Am I the person that everyone sees?

Does everyone see who I think they see?

Obsessive introspection mutates my real demeanor. I spend so much time making myself into who I tell people I am, into who people assume I am, into who I assume people assume I am. I’m not sure who I am.

I remember being a child, when the grass was green on both sides, when snow meant snowmen, when adults really had all the answers, and I didn’t care to know anything else. Now I’m swept up in self-acceptance, self-destruction, and self-everything-else-I’m-told-I-have-to-worry-about.

At least what’s come of developing an introspective habit is that I’ve developed the answer to introspective habits. Next time I throw up words like these and have a mental boxing match with my demons I’ll just put my finger on the laptop touchpad, drag the mouse to the “next” button on iTunes, and click until… I lose my train of thought. Damn, I like Arcade Fire.

-Ben

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About Brad,Robert,Ben

We are three kids from three different time zones, with one common goal. This is our voice:
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2 Responses to Stream of Conscienceness No.1: self-whatever

  1. Alex says:

    “I spend so much time making myself into who I tell people I am, into who people assume I am, into who I assume people assume I am. I’m not sure who I am.” story of my life!

  2. Mark says:

    Arcade Fire is a good place to lose yourself.

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